Tuesday, May 1, 2012


Why do I put my hope and trust in things that fail?

Why do I hold so many grudges and never forgive or forget?

Why do I return to the same sin habits every time that I lose sight of You?

Why do I doubt everything?

Why do I judge other people when I am the same or worse?

Why do I just feel like crying almost every day?

Why do I lose control of my own words and say things I shouldn't?

Why do I care so much about things that don't matter?

Why do I have feelings that are misplaced and mistimed?

Why do I forget that You have a purpose for my life?

Why do I stay up all night, wondering why my world is all wrong?

Why do I lose sight of the path while trying to see the finnish line?

Why do I forget that an undivided heart is the most important thing?

Why do I feel so depressed, when I know that there are so many worse things in other people's lives?

Why do I ignore the possibility that the pain is the only way to learn?

Why do I forget all those hard learned lessons?

Why do I fail to submit myself to God and resist the devil?

Why do I have wicked thoughts?

Why am I wondering all these things, instead of going out and living? Can I really reverse my regrets? Why don't I just stop being depressed and go out and change things? What if I really lived for You? What if I stopped being selfish?  Could I be a different person?

The only answer for me is that He is here. He loves me. I don't have to live up to any standard because He loves me.

The pain ain't gonna last forever - its only gonna make you stronger...He's gonna help you get through this. --Mandisa

Zeph 3:17


  1. Agreed. I don't get it. Why is it so hard to just live it out? I think maybe it's because we're trying to do it in our own strength. We don't give our own striving to Him.

    1. Totally. Wow! Hadn't really thought of it that way...today something that really struck me (I was listening to Have Your Way by Britt Nicole) was that maybe I've got to stop begging God to fix EVERYTHING and just trust that He's got a plan for where I am.