Why do I put my hope and trust in things that fail?
Why do I hold so many grudges and never forgive or forget?
Why do I return to the same sin habits every time that I lose sight of You?
Why do I doubt everything?
Why do I judge other people when I am the same or worse?
Why do I just feel like crying almost every day?
Why do I lose control of my own words and say things I shouldn't?
Why do I care so much about things that don't matter?
Why do I have feelings that are misplaced and mistimed?
Why do I forget that You have a purpose for my life?
Why do I stay up all night, wondering why my world is all wrong?
Why do I lose sight of the path while trying to see the finnish line?
Why do I forget that an undivided heart is the most important thing?
Why do I feel so depressed, when I know that there are so many worse things in other people's lives?
Why do I ignore the possibility that the pain is the only way to learn?
Why do I forget all those hard learned lessons?
Why do I fail to submit myself to God and resist the devil?
Why do I have wicked thoughts?
Why am I wondering all these things, instead of going out and living? Can I really reverse my regrets? Why don't I just stop being depressed and go out and change things? What if I really lived for You? What if I stopped being selfish? Could I be a different person?
The only answer for me is that He is here. He loves me. I don't have to live up to any standard because He loves me.
The pain ain't gonna last forever - its only gonna make you stronger...He's gonna help you get through this. --Mandisa