Wednesday, December 7, 2011

While I'm Waiting

I watched Fireproof for like the second time ever yesterday (what a horrible homeschooler I am).

And, yup, it's an amazing movie. 

And it had this song in it.

And God is totally using those words in my life, right now.

Why did it never connect with me that sometimes the "big things" God will call me to do will just be waiting on Him? Simply obeying Him when He says "Not now. I have something better."
Simply worshiping when I feel like crying in frustration.
Simply adoring my loving God when all human relationships are driving me insane.
Simply letting go of this fear that held me back.
Simply waiting.

And prayerful decision making. That, I'm telling ya, is tough stuff for me. I can't tell you how many times I've prayed "God, please tell me what to do right now" and felt like there was no answer. I'm gonna bare my soul and admit that I've completely given in to the lie that He can't, or won't speak to me.

But I can "barely hear You whisper through the rain". And faith is acting on that tiny little voice...
He gives us the choice to listen. The choice to act. The choice to trust. 
It's called free will. I sometimes wish that He hadn't given me free will, because I mess it up so much.
But that wouldn't have been love.

What are you afraid to ask Him about? What have you been praying for without hearing an answer?
Keep praying. I know that doesn't sound very helpful, but that's all you can do! & the answer may not be what you expect, or want. 

Still, worship, even while you're waiting.


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